exiled modalities - venetia ghozlan's poetry zone

exiled modalities - venetia ghozlan's poetry zone http://vghozlan.multiply.com/ Bienvenido! Welcome to one of my poetry blog sites... Sun, 30 Nov 2008 17:48:29 -0000 Sun, 30 Nov 2008 16:17:00 -0000 exiled modalities - venetia ghozlan's poetry zone http://images.vghozlan.multiply.com/logo http://vghozlan.multiply.com/ 100 100 BethanyAEs Crossing, Tammy Boehm, Book - Barnes & Noble A book by my friend, http://vghozlan.multiply.com/links/item/5/BethanyAEs_Crossing_Tammy_Boehm_Book_-_Barnes_Noble Sun, 30 Nov 2008 16:17:00 -0000 Hello Hello everyone. 1. The surgery went fine. 2. My daughter, who worked for one of the largest mortgage companies in the country, was laid off. They have announced that there will be more lay-offs. The holiday season will be a sad one. Fortuitously, my grandson is too young to realize that. 3. Hence I returned to work, too early, became sick and since finances are bad, will grab my stash off pain pills and tough it out. Please don't offer me any saccharine words. I really don't want to hear/read them. I know life sucks and that people are having a tough time all-over. It will take years for this economic crisis to be fixed. I know that my body is beat down from the MS and fibromyalgia. If you want to make me smile, tell me a bad joke. :) When I have the energy, I will be read your blogs, http://vghozlan.multiply.com/journal/item/518/Hello Thu, 6 Nov 2008 10:51:00 -0000 The Surgeons Knife Tomorrow, I have surgery to remove the tumor... http://vghozlan.multiply.com/journal/item/517/The_Surgeons_Knife Thu, 30 Oct 2008 23:10:00 -0000 New, News, News I don't have a tumor on the spine BUT I do have one in my foot. They are still checking the nerves and cervical spine. I am getting medical clearance for surgery...I have two days vacation and one day sick leave, left on my books. Money is definitely going to be an issue. Someone asked me if I regretted donated my $600 mini-meet money. to the Red Cross. The answer is a resounding NO. http://vghozlan.multiply.com/journal/item/516/New_News_News Sat, 18 Oct 2008 12:25:00 -0000 My Many Faces Lately, because of poor health, I have not written. My friends, Tammy and Karen, recently posted blogs about their many personalities. While waiting for MRI's (I had two Saturday, one on my spine and then one on my foot, two hours apart) I decided to write about my many personalities, as well. In between writing I became dizzy and passed out. When I came to, I chuckled...the technicians failed to see the absurdity and humor, in me passing out, in a hospital... Varda Chaya- she is the Jewish apostate who mocks all religions, all belief systems, indeed all tribal affiliations. Descended from Swedish berserkers, African slaves, native American savages, and the conquisadores, she is fatigued by all of the global tribal violence that has been part and parcel, of human history. She wishes that people would just "get over it". She wants the Palestinians to "get over it". The Israelis to "get over it". The Africans to "get over it". Native Americans to "get over it". Whatever... http://vghozlan.multiply.com/journal/item/515/My_Many_Faces Mon, 13 Oct 2008 02:27:00 -0000 A Whatever Mood I want to let everyone know that I have enjoyed the recent blog entries, about the others who live in you. I do read my Multiply emails. Karen's and Tammy's blog entries were touching, funny and poignant, I am wrestling with several health crisis and have very little energy to write. I am getting ready for more tests and have appointments with several doctors, on Wednesday. Once they have reached a conclusion, I will rejoin the blogging world. Right now, it takes too much energy and discipline, to think or compose. Please don't take it personally. <img src="file:///C:/DOCUME%7E1/COMPAQ%7E1/LOCALS%7E1/Temp/moz-screenshot.jpg" alt=""><img style="cursor: -moz-zoom-in;width: 180px;height: 133px;" alt="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/8/81/A_woman_thinking.jpg" src="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/8/81/A_woman_thinking.jpg"> Several of you have my phone number and/or emails. Call/write me, if you like. Venetia http://vghozlan.multiply.com/journal/item/514/A_Whatever_Mood Sat, 11 Oct 2008 12:07:00 -0000 Lucky Me <img alt="http://images.inmagine.com/168nwm/artbox/art013/art013276.jpg" src="http://images.inmagine.com/168nwm/artbox/art013/art013276.jpg"> I had 4 doctor's appointments today...lucky me...I may have a tumor. The news from the kidney doc was not good either...in fact, I can safely say that my doctors are worried and would love to just stick me in the hospita to tinker with my innards...problem is...when the bill collectors are snapping at your ankles, like alligators, taking 2 or 3 weeks off from work, is problematic...ce la vie... Anywho, when I feel up to it, I will take a gander at your blogs... http://vghozlan.multiply.com/journal/item/513/Lucky_Me Wed, 24 Sep 2008 19:54:00 -0000 Finished I have finally finished proofing and designing the layout, for the poetry book. It has been uploaded to CreateSpace, for their layout proofing. I worried for awhile over grammatical errors and a friend at work took a look at it. I ended up placing a disclaimer advising the reader that all grammatical and punctuation errors were the authors. Oh well... The children's book is coming along...I found an illustrator and that's FANTASTIC, since I am no illustrator... I will be visiting blogs today! Woo hoo! http://vghozlan.multiply.com/journal/item/511/Finished Tue, 9 Sep 2008 20:26:00 -0000 August 2008 Pequeno Robert, His Mom, Da and http://vghozlan.multiply.com/photos/album/3/August_2008 Sun, 31 Aug 2008 16:49:19 -0000 Blog Monday Guys, I have been busy, working on my book. I plan on having it ready by the end of October... I plan on catching up to your blogs, on Monday... http://vghozlan.multiply.com/journal/item/510/Blog_Monday Fri, 29 Aug 2008 22:49:00 -0000 July 2008 My Two Youngest Daughters and Pequeno http://vghozlan.multiply.com/photos/album/2/July_2008 Sat, 16 Aug 2008 15:35:32 -0000 Walk my Pretend Parrot 1. walk my pretend parrot 2. get pissed off when the damn bird makes a bid for freedom and flies back to the Amazon Basin 3. throw away the pretend cage and the bird poop 4. buy a dog (dogs may run away but always attempt to return to their owners) 5. name dog Fido the Fearless 'cause poodles have big egos, are filled with bravado but no friggin http://vghozlan.multiply.com/calendar/item/10008/Walk_my_Pretend_Parrot Fri, 15 Aug 2008 22:10:31 -0000 Taking a Pass, Thank You Kindly (A Sacred Song Space Offering) We all know the kind of people who take delight in tearing others down...out of envy, bitchiness, jealousy or other base reasons...every office, every neighborhood, every classroom has that type of person...they delight in whispering of mis-deeds, verified or not. Sacred Song Space's challenge this week is about "interruptions. Insomnia. Writer's block. Periods of spiritual silence. The things that interrupt us in doing what we need to do, physically or mentally, to be our best selves and function at our highest levels". My poem is about spiritual silence.    <img style="width: 269px;height: 153px;" src="http://www.burchardgalleries.com/auctions/2000/sep2400/l033.jpg" height="370" width="435">     let me take a pass on your offer of malicious frivolity and spiritual silence thank you kindly   please continue with your vicious character assassinations and the coffee klatch confusions let me decline your kind invitations to murder by insinuations and destroy by gross mis-directions   please continue on your low road to perdition without me I am taking a pass thank y... http://vghozlan.multiply.com/journal/item/509/Taking_a_Pass_Thank_You_Kindly_A_Sacred_Song_Space_Offering Fri, 15 Aug 2008 21:58:00 -0000 Singer of Blues, Indigos and Cobalts (A Poetry Wednesday Offering) This is a <a href="http://sanssouciblogs.multiply.com/journal/item/430/430">Poetry Wednesday Offering</a> (< < clickable link)...please go check out the offerings.  <img src="http://www.exeter.edu/media/content/BennyAndrewsTheCottonClub_rdax_250x184.jpg">         they spoke of speakeasies where folks cavorted on stages and tabletops snapping fingers, clapping hands and rhythmically kicking up their legs while singers belted out blues   me, I sing indigo I sing in a blue so dark, it appears black I sing of dancing decadently whole and naked  under inky, cobalt skies though I -  I lie hoary and bereft, in a hospital bed (in this unaesthetic place; my songs, my longings lacerates, like a living scalpel)       http://vghozlan.multiply.com/journal/item/508/Singer_of_Blues_Indigos_and_Cobalts_A_Poetry_Wednesday_Offering Tue, 12 Aug 2008 22:50:00 -0000 Incomplete (A Sacred Song Space Offering) This week's Sacred Song Space Challenge:  write about incompleteness.   I am intrigued by the creative process and anthropology...bemused by the critics, who inform people what is good and what is great music/art/books/dance...personally, I never listen to critics, preferring to make my own decision...I know what I like...this poem reflects this...    <img style="width: 284px;height: 383px;" alt="http://www.manitouspringsartscouncil.org/images/home%20page%20images/SteelSculpt_Manitou_JG.jpg" src="http://www.manitouspringsartscouncil.org/images/home%20page%20images/SteelSculpt_Manitou_JG.jpg"> amorphous, a fragment waits to be shaped unbirthed child of solid stone - these indeterminate contours cry out for the adz, the obsidian blade the flame, the frozen  wolf bone that which will cut yet define and complete   ...and when the creator/sculpturer is satisfied when lines are chiseled - convex and concave elbow and brows muscle and limbs are rounded and smoothed and I am unveiled the slavish crowd will oohh and aahh while they hold fluted glasses of Dom PerignonDom prancing untalented critics will critique and creation will be reduced to a few murderous ... http://vghozlan.multiply.com/journal/item/507/Incomplete_A_Sacred_Song_Space_Offering Fri, 8 Aug 2008 22:46:00 -0000 Have an Internet Birthday Party 1. have an internet birthday party, even though it's not my birthday 2. invite everyone who has a birthday alert, on the their Multiple Calendar 3. pretend to be excited, that it is their birthday 4. send them Monopoly money, as a gift 5. serve nothing to eat 'cause it's an INTERNET birthday party (duh) 6. LOL at the calendar event alerts, I receive . http://vghozlan.multiply.com/calendar/item/10007/Have_an_Internet_Birthday_Party Fri, 8 Aug 2008 13:17:55 -0000 Wintery Love <img style="width: 275px;height: 366px;" alt="http://www.salihab.com/show-image/477930/Saliha-Bazmjow/Winter-Love.jpg" src="http://www.salihab.com/show-image/477930/Saliha-Bazmjow/Winter-Love.jpg"> love I await thee achingly my blood mourns this frozen wanting time moves apace in between wintery laced breaths held it is an eon then I slowly exhale love I still await thee art -<a href="http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.salihab.com/show-image/477930/Saliha-Bazmjow/Winter-Love.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.salihab.com/large-view/Abstract%2520Artwork/133438---11033/Painting.html&h=500&w=375&sz=70&hl=en&start=24&sig2=oc8b0w3RYfM4">Winter Love</a> http://vghozlan.multiply.com/journal/item/505/Wintery_Love Mon, 4 Aug 2008 00:16:00 -0000 Saying it Like Hallmark <img style="width: 264px;height: 341px;" alt="http://www.allen-simco.com/soul%20cage%20-%20allen%20simco.JPG" src="http://www.allen-simco.com/soul%20cage%20-%20allen%20simco.JPG"> let me tell you of spiders who spin silken webs capturing small unwary life of cages and traps we willingly walk into and of princes machiavellian in deed and intent he was like that my Machiavelli, my monster who looked in the mirror and saw reflected back a prince among men charming, dashing and debonair my sweet, delectable Borgia acolyte who performed flawlessly upon his pseudo, post-modern, papal stage a poor player of catholic tastes and intrigues and although I ran I could not excise the memories of my passion - so rich and cloying like caramelized peaches - a nectar that clung to my skin and tongue yes I can still feel the kisses he trailed down my guilty skin those sins of commissions... (humbly I ask if one does not bleed can one expire from loves pleasure, loves pain? ah...no, you say, with derision in your voice) still I would have liked a requiem for love lost and betrayed maybe a small advertisement in the local paper or even a Hallmark card saying sorry you know one... http://vghozlan.multiply.com/journal/item/504/Saying_it_Like_Hallmark Sun, 3 Aug 2008 23:11:00 -0000 Throw Tantrum call telemarketer. call repetitively and ask if they would like to purchase slightly used trash. become outraged when they hang-up on me and call back. tell them that it is my right to harass them. demand their cell phone number. call back when they hang-up on me again. call back over and over until I discover something better to do with my time. bag up the damn trash, if the stoopid telemarketer finally convinces me of their disinterest and then take it http://vghozlan.multiply.com/calendar/item/10006/Throw_Tantrum Sat, 2 Aug 2008 10:32:53 -0000 Sneak Across Border to Mexico sneak across border to Mexico. Apply for food stamps...oh yeah, they don't have food stamps. Ok - apply for medical assistance...oh yeah, they don't have medical assistance. Alright then, apply for um...er...never mind...sneak back across border, through Texas. Claim to be Rusty's lost cousin on his great great great great aunt's side 18 times removed. THEN apply for refugee status, food stamps, medical assistance, housing assistance, educational grants, and any other refugee grants. ALSO bring over to the US, ALL 18 billion other http://vghozlan.multiply.com/calendar/item/10005/Sneak_Across_Border_to_Mexico Fri, 1 Aug 2008 19:09:14 -0000 Cloud Poems (Sacred Song Space Offerings) The Sacred Song  Space Picture Challenge, this week  is titled "Clouds in the Sky". This challenge is not simply a picture challenge, but one where one throws off the clouds, in one's life...I tend to write of dark things, of hypocrisy, of innate violence, bigotry and the need to change...this is about as light, as I could get, today...     <img style="width: 299px;height: 299px;" alt="The image “http://painting-by-cecelia.com/db1/00094/painting-by-cecelia.com/_uimages/IAMA.jpg” cannot be displayed, because it contains errors." src="http://painting-by-cecelia.com/db1/00094/painting-by-cecelia.com/_uimages/IAMA.jpg"> Bleeding Cloud Tears     there were tears in the skies rents in its silvered lining   I watched as scarlet bled through blue tears accompanied by a deafening white noise - a noise that trumpeted and echoed my ancient anguish   I had narrated that laundry list of sorrows in first, second and even third person I had justified and rationalized it with 20/20 hindsight proposed penance and acts of contrition abjectly presented restitution along with pounds and pounds of flesh I had brought the mountain to Mohammad and struck water from desert rocks all to no av... http://vghozlan.multiply.com/journal/item/503/Cloud_Poems_Sacred_Song_Space_Offerings Thu, 31 Jul 2008 22:48:00 -0000 Dust & Dialogue This week's challenge at Sacred Songspace was a picture interpretation, titled, "Dusk and Dialogue": <img style="width: 308px;height: 385px;" alt="The image “http://www.turningpointgallery.com/fullsize/ancestors_of_north.jpg” cannot be displayed, because it contains errors." src="http://www.turningpointgallery.com/fullsize/ancestors_of_north.jpg"> It was the cynic in me (he said) I replied, it's the pragmatic that makes me say no he wanted a dialogue (it was his attempt at foreplay) daring me to see over the far horizon with one eye cocked on tomorrow the other, lost in some kind of quantum probability where love ruled, impossible dreams commanded the heart (as well as, the hormones) and where the white knight rode away, on his destrier with a fair maiden, in his arms (deflowered, of course) but, you see when I lost my virginity (and dreams of romantic happy afters) to this boy-child in the back seat of his car the experience left me (eventually, he did too) pragmatic and pregnant with no more time for useless dialogue just a yearning for the dust where ravens croon a beckoning dirge and are the harbingers of all endings art lifted from  <a href="http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.turningpointgallery.com/fullsize/ancestors_of_north.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.turningpointgallery.com/detail.asp?id=15&h=500&w=400&sz=40&hl=en&st">Turning Point Gallery</a> http://vghozlan.multiply.com/journal/item/502/Dust_Dialogue Sun, 27 Jul 2008 13:46:00 -0000 Hang Carlic and Crosses Remember to hang garlic and crosses. The neighbor on the 2nd floor is weird. I never see her during the day but I hear her walking around. At night. At midnight specifically. I suspect her of doing dastardly deeds. This morning I saw a bat watching me. Mebbe I should call a priest...naw, I am Jewish. I better call my rabbi http://vghozlan.multiply.com/calendar/item/10004/Hang_Carlic_and_Crosses Thu, 24 Jul 2008 23:22:24 -0000 Hang Carlic and Crosses Remember to hang garlic and crosses. The neighbor on the 2nd floor is weird. I never see her during the day but I hear her walking around. At night. At midnight specifically. I suspect her of doing dastardly deeds. This morning I saw a bat watching me. Mebbe I should call a priest...naw, I am Jewish. I better call my rabbi http://vghozlan.multiply.com/calendar/item/10003/Hang_Carlic_and_Crosses Thu, 24 Jul 2008 23:21:57 -0000 Buy Better Mouse Trap I suspect the computer mouse of stealing my gouda cheese. Had a wheel of Gouda in the frig. It is missing! The damn computer mouse is looking fat & sleek. Most likely, when we turn off the light & head to bed, the bloody computer mouse is rooting thru the frig. Come to think of it, the havarti went missing, last month. Initially I suspected my friend Tammy, but naw...she would have left me at least enough harvarti, to eat with a couple of crackers. It's gotta be the computer mouse...sneaky little bastard...maybe a virtual cat would be better than a mouse http://vghozlan.multiply.com/calendar/item/10002/Buy_Better_Mouse_Trap Mon, 21 Jul 2008 19:25:40 -0000 Bury the Iguana Remember to bury Igor the Iguana...buy some suitable flowers...and let the insurance Geico gecko know, time of memorial service. Check to see if flies should be on the snack http://vghozlan.multiply.com/calendar/item/10001/Bury_the_Iguana Sun, 20 Jul 2008 20:17:50 -0000